I’m a judger. I don’t wanna be. But as I struggle to sort out my thoughts and feelings about certain things, then finally determine a stance on a certain issue, there is always going to be another side. If I’ve reasoned rationally, then I have decided NOT to choose one side for a really good [...]
Archive for the ‘life’ Category
15 Nov
This year will be different…Yippee!!
Why do I dread the holidays? Why? Is it the extra “tasks” that make me feel overwhelmed or inadequate? Is it the way they are driven in every way by consumerism? When I was a kid, my mom and dad made a big deal out of the holidays. All of them. Easter, Valentines Day, Christmas, [...]
14 Nov
Push it, push it, to the limit, limit
I’m so tired. So, so very tired. It’s already been a crazy weekend and Saturday’s barely half over. I have 5 blog posts (5!), half-finished and no more brain power to make them make sense. I’m currently unable to move from this chair. I physically can’t move. I’ve considered calling 911 a couple of times [...]
2 Nov
My Eulogy-second attempt
So, what will they say about me when I’m gone? and when I say “they”, I mean my family, my friends, my kids, everyone. Wow, that’s an overwhelming thought. Maybe because they wouldn’t all say the same thing exactly. I don’t know how to start, so I’ll just start…probably in the middle. Cari’s not here [...]
31 Oct
Silence, Please
In a state of deep reflection Trying to sort out feelings, thoughts, opinions, ideals If only I could silence the noise and distractions long enough to sort it out If I don’t, the opportunity is lost forever–slipping through the cracks made by noise Meditate, concentrate on these things for long enough, revelation comes Beautiful Revelation, [...]
25 Oct
My eulogy–first attempt
I’ve decided to write my own eulogy, pronounced u-googaly, if you’ve seen Zoolander. If you read my post here, you’ll remember that I was contemplating what people say about loved ones when they die. Dead people are always perfect blessings. Their flaws are forgotten and their gifts and attributes are magnified. Is this just human [...]
5 Sep
My Testimony-part 4
God is just so gracious. Full of grace, understanding, patience, and love for His children. After that first week at church, I had to go back for more. I went the next week by myself, dressed more casually this time so as to blend in better with the crowd. The following week, Sunday fell on [...]
31 Aug
My Testimony-part 3
**In the interest of full disclosure, I did get “saved” at Falls Creek Church camp when I was a teenager. I was baptized when I got home from camp, and went to church for a little while. I read my bible. But I never really understood that I could have a personal relationship with Jesus. [...]
31 Aug
My Testimony–part 2
Where was I? Oh, yeah, crying. not running. So, the night of crying–and thoughts of running– was a Tuesday night. Two days later, on a Thursday afternoon, I mentioned in passing to a neighborhood friend that finances were strained and it was causing worry and pain. Unbeknownst to me, she and her husband had been [...]
31 Aug
My Testimony–part 1
I’m approaching my 10 year “anniversary” of when I allowed Jesus to come into my life and make me new. I want to tell my story. I know I’ve shared bits and pieces, but I need to lay it all out. It was October ’99. I’ll begin in September 1999. Kevin and I had just [...]
